My 2014 Year End Thoughts

I wish to be honest on my blog, so this is not the usual uplifting and motivational new years resolution post. Out of my usual optimism, this post is indeed a little melancholy.

At the end of each year , I always had tons happy memories to reminisce and things to be thankful for.  I always had a clear understanding of my personal and professional progresses, procrastination, and contentment.  But 2014 had been a very confused and contradicting one for me to conclude. I was neither very happy nor was it a horrible year. It seemed like a year filled with strong emotions but those sentiments somehow feel bland. For some reason , I am also very unsatisfied with my accomplishments in 2014, but in retrospect, I actually have done and progressed a lot. 

I hate to think that maybe I have become ungrateful towards life because I know I must have been blessed through the past year, but I can't specified what exactly I should show my appreciations for. I can't even say I was content , or maybe that is only because I am not at this very moment. But again, I can't precisely depict why.

Maybe it's because in many aspects , 2014 was a year filled with working towards and pouring my heart out for things that are so intangible and uncertain. It had been a year of taking the leap of faith , having courage , but also immersing with fear and insecurity. 2014 flew by too fast for me organize my thoughts and actions. I am excited about the new prospects, of course, but as of right now, I can't help but carry those negative sentiments over to the new page. Maybe I'm just really moody recently. 

I guess, in order to move forward to a new set of thoughts , 2015 has to be a year of execution and decision making. It has to be a year where I find solutions and conclusions to my negativity lingered from 2014. As of now, I'm not sure how the year will turn out, but I'm going to make it a great one.

Last but not least, as we celebrate the new year , let us not forget to send prayers to the victims of the recent AirAsia crash , and condolences to their friends and families. I wish 2015 can be a year short of heart-wrenching catastrophe, and I wish health and happiness to all.